Our friend John Delhousaye has prepared a simple daily meditation for each day of advent and christmas to help us experience Jesus. You download the PDF here.
What is a Church Home? by Jerome Hammack
Webster defines a home as a place of residence, like a house or apartment, or the social unit of a family living together. Webster also defines church as a building for public worship, an organized body of religious believers, and the act of public worship itself.
These are two independent ideas that when applied together foster a healthy community that has the capability of embodying Jesus. So how do we go from a church to a church home? There are characteristics of a home that when applied to church that can help interweave these two independent ideas.
Warmth and belonging. There is a reason Dorothy clicked those red heels and repeated the phrase “There is no place like home.” Home is a place of belonging and safety. It is the first place we think to turn when we are in danger. Home in part feels safe because of the familiar faces that reside there. Large churches, although they have their place, tend to lose this piece of the puzzle along the way. It is hard to feel at home when you don’t experience familiar faces and without familiar faces the safety of home goes by the wayside. With a church body that commits to regular attendance those familiar faces begin to show up.
Another characteristic of a home are chores. Growing up most kids are given a chore list be it taking out the trash, cleaning your room, or doing the dishes. Regardless of what the chore itself is, chores are a core part of a home. It is the collective buy in of the family unit to put in the work to help make the household run. In this same way in order for a church to move closer to a church home there are chores that need to be done from those that live there. There are tangible needs that a church has; from cleaning, to children care, to being the first smiling familiar face that people see when they arrive. When you do these chores you are buying in to this place being home. Chores aren’t fun but with them comes an ownership piece that isn’t there if those chores aren’t being done.
As much as home is a refuge and safe place that doesn’t mean that it is always rainbows and butterflies. There is strife and conflict in a home that isn’t necessarily a bad thing. There are difficult conversations that are had within a home. This isn’t a free license to judge or call out but there is an accountability piece that is healthy. If you notice someone struggling approaching with love means not attacking while also not condoning the behavior.
So what does a church home look like? It looks like living life in community outside of just the Sunday gathering. It looks like sharing the workload not from a place of obligation but from an ownership standpoint. It looks like being accountable and holding othersaccountable as well. It looks like actually loving one another which can sometimes mean difficult conversations. It looks like receiving those difficult conversations with grace and understanding that it is coming from a place of love and concern.
As we live out this church home life we model what it means to follow Christ to those guests that come to our home. That they may experience something different and know what it means to be home.
Asaph Reading Guide
Week 1: The Honest Psalmist
Sunday Text: Psalm 73
Daily Companion Readings:
Monday: Psalm 13 – “How long, O Lord?”
Tuesday: Habakkuk 1:2–4 – The prophet’s lament
Wednesday: John 6:66–69 – “Lord, to whom shall we go?”
Thursday: Psalm 42 – “Why are you downcast, O my soul?”
Friday: Romans 8:18–28 – Hope amid groaning
Week 2: The God Who Is Judge and Shepherd
Sunday Text: Psalm 50
Daily Companion Readings:
Monday: Micah 6:6–8 – What does the Lord require?
Tuesday: Psalm 24 – The King of Glory comes in
Wednesday: Matthew 23:23–28 – Jesus confronts empty religion
Thursday: Amos 5:21–24 – Let justice roll down
Friday: John 10:11–15 – The Good Shepherd
Week 3: The Long Memory of God’s People
Sunday Text: Psalm 77 (and 78 excerpts)
Daily Companion Readings:
Monday: Exodus 14:19–31 – God parts the sea
Tuesday: Psalm 105:1–11 – Remember His wonders
Wednesday: Deuteronomy 6:4–12 – Do not forget the Lord
Thursday: Luke 22:14–20 – “Do this in remembrance of me”
Friday: Hebrews 12:1–3 – Surrounded by witnesses
Week 4: The Song that Leads to Christ
Sunday Texts: Psalm 82 / John 10:34–36
Daily Companion Readings:
Monday: Isaiah 11:1–9 – The righteous judge
Tuesday: Luke 4:16–21 – Jesus announces Jubilee
Wednesday: Matthew 25:31–40 – The least of these
Thursday: Revelation 5:6–10 – The Lamb who was slain
Friday: Revelation 21:1–5 – All things made new
CULTIVATING THE SOIL / 5 WEEKS OF SPIRITUAL PRACTICES FOR AMONG THE TREES.
1. Sabbath – Cease to Be Filled
Practice: Set aside one day (or part of a day) each week to cease from work, errands, and productivity.
Focus: Rest in God’s sufficiency. Delight in what already is, rather than striving for more.
Prompt: “What would it look like to simply be today?”
Verse: “In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and trust shall be your strength.” – Isaiah 30:15
2. Meditation – Dwell Deeply
Practice: Choose one verse or short passage. Sit with it in silence for 5–10 minutes, repeating it slowly and listening.
Focus: Let God’s word move from head to heart.
Prompt: “What word or phrase is God drawing my attention to?”
Verse: “But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night.” – Psalm 1:2
3. Hiddenness – Be Seen by God Alone
Practice: Do one act of love, prayer, or generosity this week that no one else will know about.
Focus: Detach from applause. Anchor your soul in God’s unseen presence.
Prompt: “Am I okay being hidden with Christ today?”
Verse: “Your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.” – Matthew 6:6
4. Gratitude – Name the Good
Practice: Each day, name 3 things you’re thankful for—small or big. Write them down or say them aloud to God.
Focus: Train your heart to notice grace.
Prompt: “Where did I experience goodness or beauty today?”
Verse: “Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” – 1 Thessalonians 5:18
5. Examen – Trace the Day with God
Practice: At the end of the day, pause and prayerfully review your day with God. Where did you feel close to Him? Distant?
Focus: Grow in awareness of God’s presence in daily life.
Prompt: “Where did I see God today? Where did I resist Him?”
Verse: “Search me, O God, and know my heart… Lead me in the way everlasting.” – Psalm 139:23–24
Part 1: Innovation & Heritage
by Gavin Linderman
How do we church planters honor our past while simultaneously blessing our future? This inquiry isn’t just a qualifying exercise. It’s a deeply personal one that shapes the way we approach the church’s mission in a rapidly changing world. The culture that unfolds before us is as ripe as the reformation that preceded us.
This question also carries personal weight for me. Twelve years after planting Axiom Church, I still feel the fruit of our father and mother, Cooper Hills Community Church, and my Mennonite Brethren family. This tension is one for the optimist and the brave.
Recently, I had an experience that underscored the weight of this question. On a flight back to Phoenix from a church planting conference, of all things, I was seated next to five priests in the exit aisle—perhaps a curious twist of divine humor.
These were not ordinary priests but a dedicated group committed to the Latin Vulgate. They dress in traditional robes and conduct masses strictly in Latin, adhering to the “Quo Primum.” This papal bull, decreed by Pope St. Pius V on July 14, 1570, states, “It shall be unlawful henceforth and forever throughout the Christian world to sing or to read Masses according to any formula other than that of this Missal.”
As we conversed, the young priest to my right shared a thought that struck me profoundly: “The Devil sits on the throne at the heart of man’s innovation.” This statement caused me pause, especially after attending a conference that celebrated the “new” and “brightest” ways of church planting amidst the chaos of modern society. It made me ponder the inherent tension and weight we face as we consider how to engage with the future of the church. What role does innovation play in a time that requires such agility?
The Journey: Deep Pain & Loss
by Steve Reimer
My experiences of deep pain or loss have often led to significant changes in my spiritual life.
No one enjoys pain and yet everyone experiences it. It is part of life and part of our spiritual journey. Pain is not only physical; we can experience emotional suffering within ourselves and from relationship with others. Talking about pain and suffering is like talking about taxes or a visit to the dentist. We prefer to ignore it as long as possible. When we can no longer ignore it, we try to endure it as quickly as we can so we can move past it and hopefully forget about it.
But those who have journeyed far in their relationship with Jesus tell us that some of the most profitable places in their journey have been connected to pain and suffering. Pain is often followed by a deeper joy, a more intimate relationship with Jesus, and a greater sense of freedom and contentment than experienced prior to the suffering. Why is this so?
One of the primary roles pain plays in our lives is to help us let go of things we have become overly attached to. It is human nature to value things in our lives in ways that are unhealthy for us—not just physical things, but emotional and spiritual (non-material) things, also. These include approval from others, control over others and our environment, security in possessions, pleasure, and more.
We pursue these things believing that they will meet our deep needs, especially the need for love. But eventually these things will fail us, and this leads to pain and suffering. Pain always invites us to let go of something. In this case, our pain can be a natural way of reordering our desires and helping us place our needs before God.
Pain teaches us about ourselves, our unhealthy dependence on things, and helps us depend more on God and draw closer to Him. As we journey through this transition, we find that by letting go of something temporal we experience freedom and joy. The book of Job offers an example of this spiritual dynamic. Job experienced significant suffering.
Job was attached to a certain perspective about life and about God. When things went counter to how he thought they should, Job cried out to God. Eventually, God confronted Job and Job had to let go of his attachments. When Job surrendered, he experienced God in a new way and replied, “My ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you. Therefore I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes” (Job 42:5-6, NIV).
When Job looked back on his journey and the suffering he had endured, he acknowledged that he had transitioned into a richer phase of his journey. His relationship with God was stronger and his understanding of God clearer. By contrast, Job regretted and even despised his previous place on the journey. So, too, will it be with us.
Our attachments hold us back. When we allow God to use pain as a way of helping us let go of those things, we will recognize that all along we had been settling for less.
A Guide for Lent
A Call to Fast & Pray
Jesus says, “WHEN you fast and when you pray,” not, “IF you fast,” and, “IF you pray." As a community with Jesus at the center, we want to challenge each other to commit to fasting and praying this Lent season, as is tradition. We recognize that fasting is one of the most abused of Jesus' practices and also the least engaged. So we have created a discernment guide for choosing how to fast, as well as a short word on what fasting is.
What is fasting?
As we starve the flesh we learn to notice and feed the spirit. The goal of fasting is feasting on the person and presence of Jesus. By choosing to fast from comforts such as: food, drinks, routines, and actions, we find that only God can feed the deeper hunger pains of the heart. In a culture of fast food, doom scrolling, and chaotic calendars, the body and its pleasures distract us from noticing the union we so desperately need deep within. By participating in a fast, we place ourselves in the way of God's grace, allowing us to find freedom from reliance on earthly things.
Discernment Guide for Fasting
Take some time to hold each of the following questions before God. Ask him to influence your thinking and feelings. Trust that as you sit with each question, God's Spirit is delighted to give guidance.
1) What comforts have I leaned on to attend to my emotional aches and pains?
2) What does my mind and body naturally want to use to find pleasure, and what environments or spaces tend to provoke my desire for pleasure?
3) What comforts or conveniences might I take for granted that if fasted from, would help produce for me a focus of gratitude and spiritual awareness? (Ex; self check out lines, texting, etc)
4) What is something that I love to do that I could replace with spending intentional time with Jesus instead?
Prayer for Lent
May this desert season of fasting and repentance reduce our body’s, mind’s and spirit’s need for control and become more dependent, aware and rooted in You. As we deny ourselves, replace the scarcity reality of the flesh with the reality of Kingdom abundance. May this period of intentional spiritual focus lead us into an overflow of love, generosity, clarity, and communion with You. Prepare our hearts for the resurrection of Easter. Amen
Reads: Brian Zhand’s Unvarnished Jesus: A Lenten Journey is a great resource to walk through lent that some of our leaders and groups will be going through.
Seasons of Liturgy
A Contemplative Poster Series by Johnny Kerr
Liturgy is a word we don't hear often in modernity, and almost never outside of its typical religious context. Derived from Latin, Greek, and French, it roughly translates to something like "the work of the people". Additional words—such as "public", "service", and "worship"—can also help to contextualize and express the rich nuances at the heart of liturgy.
The orthodox Christian calendar divides the year into themed liturgical seasons, much like our weather seasons. Familiarity and acceptance of these traditions vary greatly, depending on one's upbringing and denominational affiliations. While some might view these practices as rigid, perhaps even oppressive, others find them to be unifying and centering. Other communities and denominations have largely dispensed with or forgotten them altogether. Nevertheless, their impact on Western culture is undeniable as many in the non-religious mainstream continue, at least to some degree, observing the annual rhythms of Easter and (especially) Christmas.
Unfortunately, these traditions have at times been misunderstood and even abused by the church, its leaders, and parishioners. However, it would be a shame to, as the saying goes, "throw the baby out with the bathwater", as our modern society tends to do. While it is important to name and reject such abuses, I don't think it means we must also reject the traditions outright. I think these practices still hold much potential value for those who follow The Way of Jesus today—though only when engaged willingly and not enforced through dogmatic legalism.
Artists, as much as politicians and religious figures throughout history, have shared in the responsibility of stewarding culture in their day. This means, in part, that we play a role in voicing those aspects of culture that we want to reject, and those we desire to redeem. I hope that these posters, in some small way, put on display the richness these liturgical seasons still have to offer those who desire to cultivate a vibrant spiritual life.
Each poster was designed in vector format using Adobe Illustrator and is presented here as 11" x 17" archival prints. The overall design is largely inspired by the International Typographic Style (A.K.A. Swiss Style), particularly the grid system approach pioneered by Josef Müller-Brockmann in the first half of the 20th century.
I have a great appreciation for Swiss design in general, but I also chose it for this project because of the driving ethos behind the movement; it aimed, among other things, to create effective design standards suitable for a variety of cultural-linguistic contexts. You might say it was our first globally-minded information design movement. The principles of the grid system also serve to simplify and harmonize the presentation of text and imagery through clear visual hierarchy while avoiding symmetry for more dynamic composition arrangements.
Each liturgical season represented by my posters orients the practitioner around different aspects of the Gospel (the "good news" Jesus came to share with the world, according to the Christian tradition). For example, Advent teaches us about preparation and anticipation, while Easter teaches us about redemption, reconciliation, and freedom. Since Jesus charged his disciples with spreading this good news throughout the world, the international style principles made sense as a device to visually engage the subject matter across various spiritual traditions.
Other sources of visual inspiration included Henri Matisse's cutouts and the graphic works of Saul Bass and Paul Rand.
Each poster in the series also exhibits shared components from the broader liturgical tradition. For example, each includes a simple visual icon (visio) and a brief scripture passages (lectio). For the official holy days and periods of observance, I also included a short reflection in my own words that—when combined with the visual and scriptural components—hopefully illuminates the heart of the liturgy while inspiring reflection and contemplation throughout the season.
Periods of nonobservance in the liturgical calendar are typically referred to as "ordinary time." Rather than create a poster for ordinary time, I chose the practice commonly known as "passing the peace" to express the heart of the daily Christian life in every season. In this practice, followers of Jesus greet others with some variation of "peace be with you" to keep ourselves oriented around the loving, peacemaking posture of Jesus as we move through the world extending love and peace to others.
In the future, depending on inspiration and motivation, I may also expand this series to include other observances, such as Christmastide and Pentecost. For now, I thought it was time to put these out and see how others experience them. I welcome your feedback in the comments below.
Peace be with you!
Epiphany
by Ross Bentley
Today the Church celebrates the Epiphany (‘to be made manifest’) - the revealing, the unveiling. It is a day to see, to witness, to behold Him whom God had revealed - the Child born King of the Jews. The Christ, the Bright Morning Star, Messiah, Savior, God with us.
Matt 2:1-12
The Magi didn’t immediately see the glory of the Lord. They noticed the Star - the astronomical phenomenon. They considered its impact, they researched it, they consulted among themselves, their peers. They made a decision to pursue it and its true meaning.
So they packed, said their goodbyes, and mounted their camels. And they traveled for days (weeks, months?) arduously, enduring cold nights, hard ground, riding soreness, thirst. They likely traveled at night so they could track the star and adjust their path. Finally they arrived in Jerusalem and asked around, leading to a meeting with Herod. Based on the input of his counselors (teachers of the Law and the high priests of all the people!), they were directed toward Bethlehem, and the guidance of the Star led them to a specific house on a specific street, where Messiah was with His mother.
The Magi, upon finally encountering Messiah, finally saw, finally witnessed, finally beheld Him for whom they’d journeyed so far. And this seeing, this revelation, this Epiphany, brought them to their knees to bow down and worship Him - the One born King of the Jews! And thankfully for our sake He was born King of us All! And they poured forth their gifts, holding nothing back, but extravagantly gave what they had amassed to the new King!
So many things could’ve interfered with their Epiphany, the final revelation, the fulfillment. They could’ve gotten distracted, lost interest, inserted their own agendas, or just plain refused. And what about everyone else? Were the Magi the only ones to see the Star? Was it not revealed to others? What about the local wise elders? Did they miss the whole thing? And did the neighbors not see the glorious light in the sky that led these Magi to their neighbor’s house?
Epiphany is for all, though not all will see. Few will actually stop and behold. Few truly see what Father has in store for us. Few will behold His Glory, ‘the glory of the one and only Son, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.’ (John 1:14b NIV)
May we take time to notice, to pause, to ponder, to pursue and to behold. And may it shake our lives into a right response, lavishly giving ourselves completely to Him.
For Additional Reflection:
From Common Prayer (Claiborne)
Fifth-century monk and bishop Paulinus of Nola wrote, “We have no right to our possessions; they have been entrusted to us for the good of all. Let us then invest with the Lord what he has given us, for we have nothing that does not come from him: we are dependent upon him for our very existence. And we ourselves particularly, who have a special and a greater debt, since God not only created us but purchased us as well; what can we regard as our own when we do not possess even ourselves?”
The Journey of the Magi - TS Eliot
“A cold coming we had of it,
Just the worst time of the year
For a journey, and such a long journey:
The ways deep and the weather sharp,
The very dead of winter.”
And the camels galled, sore-footed, refractory,
Lying down in the melting snow.
There were times we regretted
The summer palaces on slopes, the terraces,
And the silken girls bringing sherbet.
Then the camel men cursing and grumbling
And running away, and wanting their liquor and women,
And the night-fires going out, and the lack of shelters,
And the cities hostile and the towns unfriendly
And the villages dirty and charging high prices:
A hard time we had of it.
At the end we preferred to travel all night,
Sleeping in snatches,
With the voices singing in our ears, saying
That this was all folly.
Then at dawn we came down to a temperate valley,
Wet, below the snow line, smelling of vegetation;
With a running stream and a water-mill beating the darkness,
And three trees on the low sky,
And an old white horse galloped away in the meadow.
Then we came to a tavern with vine-leaves over the lintel,
Six hands at an open door dicing for pieces of silver,
And feet kicking the empty wine-skins.
But there was no information, and so we continued
And arrived at evening, not a moment too soon
Finding the place; it was (you may say) satisfactory.
All this was a long time ago, I remember,
And I would do it again, but set down
This set down
This: were we led all that way for
Birth or Death? There was a Birth, certainly,
We had evidence and no doubt. I had seen birth and death,
But had thought they were different; this Birth was
Hard and bitter agony for us, like Death, our death.
We returned to our places, these Kingdoms,
But no longer at ease here, in the old dispensation,
With an alien people clutching their gods.
I should be glad of another death.
The Distant Song (Longing)
By Ross Bentley
Lately, I always feel unsatisfied. It follows me like a shadow. Not unhappy or ungrateful, but when life offers slow, quiet moments, I seem to sense that there's a need deep within, a proverbial itch that I can't seem to scratch, and it's there all the time, even when I'm not aware. I can feel it gnawing on my soul.
As I scurry through my day, I don't always notice. I'm so often captivated by my own importance, enthralled with my business. Things beyond me simply don't matter. I am all. But when I'm alone at the end of the day, 'counting my tips' as it were, when I sit in silence, that's when I hear it.
A faint song originating from way off in the distance, the melody effectively eluding me, audible only to my soul. It barely catches my attention, and I think I recognize it, I feel it, but I cannot seem to hum it or sing it. "I know this song!" my soul screams, aching to join in. But then it's gone; the tune remains just out of earshot. My brain ceaselessly scans its stores for the source of my memory, if it is a memory, but I come up with nothing. I cannot find the words, I cannot hum the tune. Maybe I don't know it, but why does it seem so familiar, so much a part of me? Why this deep connection to something I've never heard? I am tortured as I grow more desperate for this song to soothe my soul.
I try to think back to times when I could've heard, truly heard, this song that calls to me. Perhaps as a child. Did I fall asleep to it in my loneliness? Was it there when I lost my father? Did I hear it at my wedding? 'Maybe,' I say to each, still no closer to solving this riddle plaguing me.
I hear it less often these days. Once at work recently, sitting alone in emptiness, discouraged by the place I've ended up, a faint impression of the song was there. I know I heard it then. Still, I cannot recollect it. Desperation rises like tide, wanting to engulf me.
I must hear it! Now! I press my fingers into my ears, attempting to muffle the din, but to no avail. Still it eludes me. The clamor within now seems louder than any noise without. I'm truly at a loss. Why can't I hear it?
Am I the only one who cannot hear? Are others enjoying this song, humming it to themselves, but not sharing with me? My soul is tortured. A deep sadness draws me toward its
flame. Despair is now my master. 'Why? When? How long? Please!'
Lament (A letter from a father regarding his children)
by Cody Wilson
What world is this
to bring a child into?
There have been 565 mass shootings
in the United States this year.
More shootings than days.
The longest we lasted
without one was 18 days.
There is nothing new under the sun.
What constitutes a mass shooting
is 4 bodies.
Imagine my family—the ones
you know, the mass of us ash.
There is nothing new under the sun.
I forsake my son at the school gate.
I worry about the kind of holes
bullets make.
What kind of God
would wholly let us
be holed. In. Like the hole
I burn in my head
with the ember of every news story
that skims across my eyes.
I am screened with fears
of living and dying and living and—
there is nothing new under
the sun.
Of the victims of war,
the worst and most likely
to suffer are children.
More than 6000 children
have been killed
in Gaza since October.
There is nothing new under the sun.
I see this on the muted screen
as I lay on the ground,
the heaviest I can,
lifting my son
into laughter. I lift him but
I cannot lift myself most days.
There is nothing new under the sun.
Oh my God. The crises—
climate // border // war // poverty // opioids // inequality //
health // displacement // hunger // mental health //
Crises cries! We cry. Jesus wept.
Then brought Lazarus back—
but for too many beloveds to name,
there is no coming back.
There is no coming back from
the feeling you can do nothing
and the thought of eternity
still makes me fear more
than the thought of not
existing before or after
this life I was brought into.
We didn’t ask to be here.
There is nothing new under the sun.
Oh my god,
Why have you forsaken me?
There is plastic in our hearts.
It has broken the brain
barrier. Scientists predict
that over 20% of the world
will be uninhabitable by 2050.
There is nothing new under the sun.
What kind of world
did you bring your child into?
“The godly thing to do
is kill you,” says a man
to another in Israel
The godly thing is to build a wall
Though I break my spirit
against each new wall
I build against him.
The world is on fire and I’m watching a TV show about it.
There is nothing new under the sun.
“I would start trembling
my hands would tremble and start to hurt”
says a child about the war. About the water.
About there was none.
About his mother / about she wasn’t /
about—we call it conflict.
I pick my son up from school
and he is safe again
but there is a backpack
abandoned in the street somewhere.
There is nothing new under the sun.
For everything there is a season…
a time to be born, and a time to die...
…a time to tear, and a time to sew…
a time for love, and a time for hate;
a time for war, and a time for peace
There is nothing new under the sun.
"I saw murdered babies. I saw murdered
children. I saw mothers and children murdered together,”
says a man in Israel.
Then God said, “take your son, your only son,
whom you love—Isaac. Sacrifice him
to me as a burnt offering.”
Just kidding!
There is nothing new under the sun.
Nothing new but the son.
That same way I felt
when I held for the first time my own.
In bad dreams, I outlive him
In the bad world that I brought him into
which maybe he can change, but for now he still
draws on his face with marker
and I am glad. I see what I have co-created
and it is good. I am still learning to love
what every second gets closer to ending.
I am glad. I am thankful.
Thank you
for letting me shoulder the weight
of my children as I raise them
to see the sunset
over the fence
of my backyard.
Thank you for shouldering my weight.
Thank you for
the nurse who said within a heartbeat
I would go back
to the war. To the children.
Thank you for every little pang
which makes us more aware of our bodies,
however fleeting they might be.
Thank you to the heart
not just as a metaphor
but its kind beating,
for the way it pumps millions of cells
in this heaving, grieving, losing, loving
machine of our bodies,
which yes, are made
of the same atoms as the stars.
Thank you for the stars
and how we still see their light
long after they die.
Thank you that there is nothing
new normal. We’ve been here before.
It’s familiar.
What has been done will be done again.
So let’s do it again—let us shoulder
the weight of this season of waiting
and give thanks in our grieving
that it won’t last long.
LEORNING-CNIHT
by Johnny Kerr
One of the many annual rhythms that comes with my vocation as a high school teacher is proctoring state assessments each Spring. As my colleague and I neared the end of our 2023 assessment duties, all of the students in our room had finished. However, we were required to stay and silently wait out the clock. After being confined to that room for almost six hours I was so bored that I was literally reading the dictionary.
To my delight, there was a rather interesting essay in the front of that volume on the origins of the English language. I learned about some of the early structural evolutions of our language that helped make words more versatile–the widespread use of prefixes and suffixes, for example. Although much of the language from that period is not very recognizable by today’s English standards, it does give us some insight into the way certain ideas were understood, expressed, and carried forward.
The author cited specific examples of a particular linguistic development that took place during the Middle-English period–the use of compound words. Having spent the last 18 months or so developing the Common Union Initiative, a discipleship curriculum for Axiom church, I found one example from the essay particularly intriguing:
Besides using many prefixes and suffixes, it made compounds freely, such as larhus (lore-house) for school, learning-cniht (learning-knight) for disciple, fotadl (foot-pain) for gout, ban-cofa (bone-chamber) for body, etc. Some of them had a strong poetic effect, such as whale-path or swan’s road as names for the sea. (Read, viii)
Apparently, before our word ‘disciple’ was pilfered from Latin and French sources, there was a period when the compound leorning-cniht (learning-knight) was used to express the idea of a devoted follower of Jesus. Further online research provided some alternates, such as leorningċild (learning-child/youth), but that was more appropriate for describing a student than a disciple and did not catch on in this context. Others of the same period went a different route, borrowing words from various languages such as the Proto-West Germanic gingra, meaning vassal or follower. Although more succinct, ‘gingra’ doesn’t quite have the same “umph”, does it? Ultimately, the Latin and French derivative we now know as ‘disciple’ would later gain popularity and become more permanently adopted.
A Disciple from the South - Photogravure from 'La Vie de Notre Seigneur Jésus Christ' by J. James Tissot, French (1896-97)
All words lose and gain meaning depending on their use and popularity in a given place and time. Slang words are a good example of this. “That movie was sick!” could mean very different things coming from a 25-year-old versus a 65-year-old. Some words survive despite a lack of widespread cultural use. Jargon words, for example, may be quite common within a specific group while virtually absent from broader culture. However, even jargon is not exempt from losing meaning over time. Oversaturation in any context seems to eventually water down the meaning of our words. Americans, for example, have certainly watered down the word ‘love’ by using it to express our affinity for everything from a favorite song to our closest companions.
The word ‘disciple’ doesn’t get much use in modernity outside of Christian communities, but it seems to have lost much of its meaning even among Christians. Dallas Willard makes a convincing case for this in his book, The Great Omission. The Bible is full of mysterious sayings, but Jesus’ language is quite clear in the Great Commission. He commands his followers to “make disciples, baptize them in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, and teach them to obey my commands” (Matthew 28). ‘Learning-knight’ isn’t such a bad description of this.
Military conquest throughout history has brought unspeakable atrocities by the hands of American, British, Roman, and other human civilizations. The fact that these antichrist activities were often perpetrated under the banner of Christ–with the church publicly ordaining them in collusion with the state–is worth careful consideration. For that reason, I’m not generally a fan of militaristic metaphors. At the same time, I do believe in spiritual warfare. In that context, perhaps ‘learning-knight’ adds some much needed “teeth” to our modern understanding of discipleship. To further test whether or not ‘learning-knight’ is an appropriate expression of discipleship, we need look no further than Ephesians 6:10-13 where Paul takes the military metaphor to the extreme with visuals of a soldier’s armor representing faith, truth, righteousness, etc.
Going forward, I suspect ‘learning knight’ will forever color my understanding of discipleship, provided we get our definitions of ‘knight’ and ‘warfare’ from the heart of Jesus rather than the ways and histories of the world. At the end of the day, language is just a metaphor to help express complex ideas. Some concepts are simply too big for one metaphor to fully hold. As such, all metaphors have a breaking point. Since no one metaphor could possibly capture all of the richness and nuance of discipleship, it is up to us to steward its meaning well in Christian community and obedience to Christ. In that spirit, I’ll leave you with some parting reflections that hopefully bring out the best of several attempts at describing discipleship throughout the history of our language.
The Dance of Death at Basel: Death and the Knight - Lithograph by G. Danzer after Hieronymus Hess, Swiss (1842)
Leorning-cniht (learning-knight)
Knighthood is a special honor-responsibility bestowed to one who has met specific criteria through training and service. Knighthood even comes with a special ceremony, much like baptism for a follower of Jesus. But you don’t become a knight simply by saying yes. Knights are more than mere foot soldiers. Traditionally, knights earn their title by submitting themselves in service to an established knight or regiment to undergo rigorous life-skill training. In the best cases, there is also an established expectation of character and conduct that comes with being an honored representative of the kingdom you serve (chivalry, for example). Similarly, Jesus asks us to “come under [His] yoke and learn from [Him] (Matthew 11).
To be clear, there is nothing we can do to earn our salvation–that is a free gift of love and grace from our Heavenly Father. But there is an expectation of readiness and obedience. In Ephesians 6, Paul gives us practical examples for how to ready ourselves. A knight is not a knight without their skill and armor to protect them from the enemy’s attacks. The path of discipleship means engaging in spiritual warfare, and one should not step onto a battlefield that one has not prepared or dressed for.
Leorningċild (learning-child)
Jesus tells his disciples that they must “become like little children” to enter the Kingdom of Heaven (Matthew 18). Children are full of wonder and curiosity, eager to learn about the world around them. In a healthy family, children know that their parents have their best interests in mind and generally trust that their parents will teach them and care for them. This is both humbling and reassuring. Maturity is the responsibility of both parent and child, and the ratio of responsibility–along with the roles a child plays in his or her family and community–change with maturity. Although this particular language may not feel as empowering as knighthood, it is nevertheless an important key to understanding the richness of discipleship.
Gingra (Proto-West Germanic for vassal: subordinate or follower)
This one may perhaps carry a mild sting for Americans. Because freedom is the preeminent value in American culture, words like ‘submission’, ‘subordinate’, and ‘surrender’ tend to leave a bad taste in our mouths. This is likely true for all humans, but perhaps especially for Americans. In any case, that doesn’t exempt us from submitting to Christ. We simply must decide whether we are going to align our allegiances with the kingdom of America or the Kingdom of God. If we are truly subordinate to Jesus and His Way, there will likely be times we must act insubordinate to the ways of culture and country. If we are subordinate to America, we will most likely find ourselves insubordinate to Jesus at times. Jesus is quite clear that one cannot serve two masters (Matthew 6).
Discipulus (Latin for student, learner, or follower) and Deciple (French for follower)
Christ calls us to take up our cross, to be followers and imitators of Him. Jesus modeled this throughout His Earthly ministry as He claimed to do nothing apart from what He sees the Father doing (John 5). From this example, we live and teach others. Even though our American sensibilities may recoil at the idea of submission or surrender, as followers of Jesus we confess that following Him is the only Way to true freedom from sin and death.
References
Read, Allen Walker. A Brief History of the English Language. Funk & Wagnalls Standard English Dictionary, by Funk & Wagnalls Publishing Company, Inc., 1973, viii.
"leorningcild" – WordSense Online Dictionary (25th April, 2023) URL: https://www.wordsense.eu/leornungcniht/
Bosworth, Joseph. “gingra.” In An Anglo-Saxon Dictionary Online, edited by Thomas Northcote Toller, Christ Sean, and Ondřej Tichy. Prague: Faculty of Arts, Charles University, 2014. https://bosworthtoller.com/50802.
Community of Prayer Lent Installement
Community of Prayer
Mixed Media, 2023
Axiom Creative Collective
Community of Prayer is a collaborative work by six artists, each with unique vision, talent, perspective, and experience. Each artist was given a section of the popular image, Praying Hands by artist and theorist Albrecht Durer, and tasked with creating a work that would add to the whole. As each artist completed their work and the full image became reimagined, what was revealed was the beauty of a community connected and unified in mission, vulnerability, and faith. Community of Prayer is a demonstration of the importance of corporate prayer and a reminder of the value that every individual adds to a praying community (1 Thessalonians 5:11, Hebrews 10:24- 25, Ecclesiastes 4:9).
As our community observes the season of Lent, it is our hope that corporate prayer becomes a central practice in moving toward renewal. Praying together unifies us with other believers and collectively connects us with the purposes of Christ. Prayer moves us away from “self”..
With two or more take time now to:
Prayer for one another
Pray for your community
Pray for the world
“Praying Hands” Iconography
The symbol of praying hands can mean many different things, depending on the context and culture in which it is used. Many are only aware of the meanings within their own social or cultural circles, but its use is actually incredibly varied. The gesture has many different meanings across different cultures and regions of the world with a rich history to be found behind some of these uses.
Generally seen as a gesture of respect, it can also mean anything from obedience or submission to the receiver, to something as simple as a warm greeting. Most commonly it is known as a means of speaking openly to a higher god for Christians, Jews, Hindus, and Buddhists.
This particular image which Community of Prayer utilizes has become known as one of the most famous drawings of all time. Although the original image is over 500 years old it still appears in today's modern culture in a variety of different forms. Praying Hands, also known as Study of the Hands of an Apostle, originally a pen-and-ink drawing, was first produced in 1508 and considered as a study for the hands of an apostle, whose full picture was planned to occupy the central panel of a triptych installed in Frankfurt entitled the Heller Altarpiece.
Lent Resource Guide
As we prepare for the season of lent, we put together a few thoughts on lent and how to engage it together.
A Prayer Liturgy
Father God, creator of heaven and earth, God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, God of Israel, God and Father of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, True and Living God who is Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, Have mercy and hear my prayer.
First Prayers
O Lord, open our lips. And our mouth shall proclaim your praise. Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit: as it was in the beginning is now, and will be forever. Amen. Hallelujah. O God, make speed to save us. O Lord, make haste to help us. Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit: as it was in the beginning is now, and will be forever. Amen. Hallelujah.
The Jesus Prayer
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me.
Confession of Sin
Most merciful God, we confess that we have sinned against you in thought, word, and deed, by what we have done, and by what we have left undone. We have not loved you with our whole heart; we have not loved our neighbors as ourselves. We are truly sorry and we humbly repent. For the sake of your Son Jesus Christ, have mercy on us and forgive us; that we may delight in your will, and walk in your ways, to the glory of your Name. Amen.
Psalm for the Day (Corresponding to the day of the year) Gospel Reading (According to the Revised Common Lectionary) Apostles’ Creed
I believe in God, the Father almighty, creator of heaven and earth. I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord. He was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit and born of the Virgin Mary. He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried. He descended to the dead. On the third day he rose again. He ascended into heaven, and is seated at the right of the Father. He will come again to judge the living and the dead. I believe in the Holy Spirit, the holy Church, the communion of the saints, the forgiveness of sins, the resurrection of the body, and the life everlasting. Amen.
Jesus Prayer
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me.
Psalm 23
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his Name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil; For you are with me; Your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil, My cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
Psalm 91: 12
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High, shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty I will say of the Lord, “You are my fortress and my refuge, my God in whom I will trust.
Prayer for Family
Psalm 103: 15
Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy Name. Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits. He pardons all your iniquities, and heals all your diseases; He redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with lovingkindness and mercy; He satisfies you with good things, so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s. Bless the Lord, O my soul, And all that is within me bless his holy name.
Lord’s Prayer
Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be thy Name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, forever. Amen.
Jesus Prayer
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me.
The Lord’s Prayer Expanded
Our Father, Holy Father, Abba Father, in the heavens, Hallowed, holy, sacred be your name. From the rising of the sun, to the going down of the same, The name of the Lord is to be praised. Great is the Lord and greatly to be praised. Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God of hosts, The whole earth is full of your glory. Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God almighty, Who was and is and is to come. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, On earth as it is in heaven. Thy government come, thy politics be done, On earth as it is in heaven. Thy reign and rule come, thy plans and purposes be done, On earth as it is in heaven. May we be an anticipation of the age to come. May we embody the reign of Christ here and now. Give us day by day our daily bread. Provide for the poor among us. As we seek first your kingdom and your justice, May all we need be provided for us. Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us. Forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors. Transform us by the Holy Spirit into a forgiving community of forgiven sinners. Lead us not into trouble, trial, tribulation or temptation. Be mindful of our frame, we are but dust, We can only take so much. Lead us out of the wilderness into the promised land that flows with milk and honey, Lead us out of the badlands into resurrection country. Deliver us from evil and the evil one. Save us from Satan, the accuser and adversary. So that no weapon formed against us shall prosper. So that every tongue that rises against us in accusation you will condemn. So that every fiery dart of the wicked one is extinguished by the shield of faith. So that as we submit to you and resist the devil, the devil flees. So that as we draw near to Jesus Christ lifted up, His cross becomes for us the axis of love expressed in forgiveness, That refounds the world; And the devil, who became the false ruler of the fallen world, Is driven out from among us. For thine is the kingdom and the power and the glory, forever. Amen
Petition and Intercession (Making our needs known and praying for others) Contemplation (Sitting with Jesus)
Prayer to the Crucified Christ Lord Jesus, you stretched out your arms of love upon the hard wood of the cross that everyone might come within the reach of your saving embrace: So clothe us in your Spirit that we, reaching forth our hands in love, may bring those who do not know you to the knowledge and love of you; for the honor of your name. Amen.
The Beatitudes
Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted. Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth. Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for justice, for they shall be satisfied. Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God. Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called the children of God. Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Prayer for Peace
O God, you have made of one blood all the peoples of the earth, and sent your blessed Son to preach peace to those who are far off and to those who are near: Grant that people everywhere may seek after you and find you; bring the nations into your fold; pour out your Spirit upon all flesh; and hasten the coming of your kingdom; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
Prayer of St. Francis
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace. Where there is hatred, let me sow love; Where there is injury, pardon; Where there is doubt, faith; Where there is despair, hope; Where there is darkness, light; And where there is sadness, joy, O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood, as to understand; to be loved, as to love. For it is in giving that we receive; it is in pardoning that we are pardoned; and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen.
Prayer for the Week (The weekly collect from The Book of Common Prayer)
Prayer for Grace
Lord God, almighty and everlasting Father, you have brought us in safety to this new day: preserve us with your mighty power, that we may not fall into sin, nor be overcome by adversity; and in all we do, direct us to the fulfilling of your purpose, through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
Prayer of Thanksgiving
Almighty God, Father of all mercies, we your unworthy servants give you humble thanks for all your goodness and lovingkindness to us and to all whom you have made. We bless you for our creation, preservation, and all the blessings of this life; but above all for your immeasurable love in the redemption of the world by our Lord Jesus Christ; for the means of grace, and for the hope of glory. And, we pray, give us such an awareness of your mercies, that with truly thankful hearts we may show forth your praise, not only with our lips, but in our lives, by giving up our selves to your service, and by walking before you in holiness and righteousness all our days; through Jesus Christ our Lord, to whom, with you and the Holy Spirit, be honor and glory throughout all ages. Amen. Prayer for Mercy Lord, have mercy. Christ, have mercy. Lord, have mercy.
Confession of the Mystery
Christ has died. Christ is risen. Christ will come again.
Jesus Prayer Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me.
